So tomorrow is my last day working for my job. I have worked there for three years, and five months as a temporary scan tech. It wasn't something I looked forward to every morning, but it was somewhere I was capable of doing a lot of thinking. I have thought about happy moments, and depressing moments. I also had the time to stop and think if I was currently happy with my life. I am not.
I have always pushed for friends to chase after their dreams. People always have a dream job, or hobby they want to fulfill, but some people give up the opportunity in order to make money. Make money? We give up our time, and freedom over our greed for cash? This has always been a topic I can see many angles on, but can't always agree with the people I am talking to. If you make money, while doing what you love, then that's fantastic. There is nothing wrong with that, as long as you love what you do, but if you give up your dreams, and just settle for quick cash, then I don't think I can respect that as much.
Some people need money. Some of children, or have bills to pay. Some have got to this point intentionally, and some haven't. So I understand sometimes you need to push your dreams to the side, and handle responsibilities, but some people feel like they need to waste their whole life trying to become rich.
What happens when you become rich? Does all your problems disappear, and you finally get to live a great life? There is a higher rate of suicides amongst the rich, then the poor. Doesn't sound like money can buy you happiness. It can buy you fake friends, fake relationships, and possibly give you fake power, but at the end of your life, you still have ate, slept, walked, and bled like the rest of us.
So that has led up to my plans. I have spent three years, and 5 months doing something I have never cared about. I am thankful for the experience, and the money that has helped me pay my bills, and the gas I have used. Now it is time to do what I want to do. I don't want to settle for any random job I can get, because I think if something is going to take up hours of my life, then I better enjoy it. So after tomorrow, I plan on traveling. I want to see what I can, and enjoy the beauty of life.
I have made arrangements to stay with my friend for a month in Sacramento. I am not going to have a car, and I am not going to depend on anyone else but myself. I plan to travel on foot, and see all the things I can see in sac. After that month is over, we are going on a road trip. I know Portland, OR is for sure, but I am hoping to also go towards the East Coast.
My biggest interest in life is traveling, culture, and meeting new people. I want to look at all strangers as potential friends. I want to camp all over the place. I want to hitchhike, and I want to share meals with people I just met. I want to see local artist perform. I want to be invited to special events, and most of all, I just want to live. It is time, because I am not getting any younger.
I will return to a new job soon. I know people will look at this a "disgrace to society" and "the problem with America these days." But in reality, I feel sorry for the people who haven't lived yet. Have you found yourself, or did you live out everyone else expectations? Be you. Wake up in the morning, and ask yourself "If I was to die today, would I be satisfied with my life?," and if the answer is no, then change it.
